TO YOU | 22.12.15

To you, 

I wish the pain that was caused in your life wasn't real. 

I wish the pain that caused you to change our lives never occurred. 

Each day, each month and each year passes where I still don't understand why. 

As I get older, I learn more everyday. 

I learn that the pain you dealt with every day was something I would never wish on anybody. 

I wish that you were still apart of our lives, even if it was only a little. 

I can still picture your tanned skin, your white teeth and your big smile. 

I can still hear your voice nd the way you would laugh.

I remember the memories of being young, new years eve and you taking us by the Sydney Harbor Bridge to see the fire works. 

I still have the memories. 

I still have the memory of being told you were gone. 

I didn't understand.

I'll never understand. 

I will never begin to forgive the reason you went away. 

I will never begin to understand the pain you felt. 

I am sorry. 

I am sorry that we could never help you. 

I am sorry that you felt no other option. 

I love you. 

Always.